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Fucking Up My Life (On Purpose)

by Mindbender Supreme

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An autobiography track made by a sacred self-saboteur. Half God, half Devil in me!
From around 2008 or so... a classic Mindbender joint!
This is the first song that showed me how much I need to rap on guitars :)

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Fucking Up My Life!

I'm Fucking Up My Life on Purpose
My mind is burning like a violent person
I'm Fucking Up My Life on Purpose
Am I deserving this kind of hurting?

Fucking up my
Fucking up my
Fucking up my life like it's my daily job
No direction in my brain, it may be found, it may be lost
Obviously there's no way to stop these crazy thoughts
Screaming to the sky like: why do you hate me God?
Religion didn't save me, it just made me more crazy
Lately I ain't seen a minute straight real without slipping into daydreams
The pain seems normal, fate is a warzone of alien mortals
Like I'll never be saved tomorrow
Now or never
Get thousands from making crowds shout forever
Then fill your mouth with pepper
Did I arouse your temper? Good
Give me a rebel yell louder and growl
AAAAHHHH!!! now that's sounding better
Share the suffering, we're all trapped in an open air prison
Barely living, wondering if I'll ever escape
and make enough cake to celebrate with something big
Until that day comes on my dick, I don't care about a fucking thing

gotta fix the shit
solve the mission quick
thinking about this existence thing
gotta gotta live strong and die proud
but right now...

I'm Fucking Up My Life on Purpose
My mind is burning like a violent person
I'm Fucking Up My Life on Purpose
Am I deserving this kind of hurting?

I ain't paying my bills
I ain't calling you back
I'm just blazing to chill
til there's a problem with that
I ain't getting it done
Ain't exercising enough
I ain't professional enough
so watch my life get fucked
career success unknown like
when death and life will touch
I ain't straight up enough with women
so I'm missing out on all kinds of love
I ain't being responsible
I ain't defeating my obstacles
deceiving honest folk plus not
leaving illegal thoughts alone
I ain't telling the whole truth
I ain't smelling so new
cause I smoke enough weed
to knock out your crew
I ain't gonna do what I'm supposed to
report news, but I'm too stoned to be Superman
I'm hot boxing the phone booth
I ain't keeping my promise
I ain't doing what I told you
I ain't handling the little moments in life so smooth
crippled dripping blood like a posse of inner devils shot me
I'm fucking up my entire life forever
now watch me!!!

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released July 9, 2017
Produced by: ???
Recorded by: Mindbender Supreme
Mastered by: Patrick "Riksha" Bardos of Slept-On Studios

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